2.9.07

What Next?

So, I'm a mom. After 9 seemingly endless months, I finally get to hold my little man. It still feels unreal sometimes… I'm in awe. Lines from a Stevie Wonder song comes to mind:

…We have been heaven blessed
I can’t believe what God has done
Through us He’s given life to one…

Being a mom is wonderful but, at the same time, it's both daunting and scary. Am I really ready for this? Will I do right by him? I pray constantly throughout each day for guidance to enable me to take care of him the way I should. A few days ago, he had a mild bout of colic and was crying incessantly. I placed him up against my shoulder to relieve him of the pain. I held him that way for two hours, all the while feeling helpless. I cried. My mom told me I should be strong because there would be so much more to come as my baby grows up. *Sigh* And a lifetime of worrying begins.