Reality BITES!

I had no idea how expensive it is to have a baby. From giving birth where you pay for the hospital bills to buying baby stuff like clothes, crib, bottles, milk and diapers to regular visits with the pediatrician and immunization shots… whew! It can burn a big hole in any parent's pocket. I just called the doctor's clinic to inquire how much my baby's shot is going to cost when I take him there this afternoon and the secretary told me it'll be PhP 4,000.00. Whaaaaaaaatttttt?!?! *picks up jaw from the floor* She said it's one of those combination things that's why it's so pricey but my God… I'm dumbfounded.

This makes me want to go back to work already even though I'm loathe to leave my baby with a sitter or another family member. Times are hard and I'm torn between wanting to be practical and my desire to be a stay-at-home mother. The hubby's earning better than the average Filipino because he's working overseas but it's still not smooth sailing. Also I'm so used to pulling my own weight financially that it's difficult to reconcile myself to our current set-up. I feel bad about not being able to share with all the expenses we incur every month. And I have to admit, I'm not that great at budgeting yet but I'm learning as I go along. I was a spendthrift when I was still single because I felt I deserved to spend my hard-earned cash any way I wanted to. Now it's come back to bite me in the ass… hard.

I think I'm going to get a migraine.